June 2, 2026
Recently I had someone share with me that they don’t understand how I can wake up one day and all of a sudden be ‘following God’.
18 months ago, my entire world was a giant black sink hole.
I was drowning in depression, an anxiety disorder and intrusive thoughts of taking my own life.
Under my breath I whispered “someone please me”
I don’t know who I thought I was calling out too, but I was desperate.
I’d tried many different self help and alternative healing tools in my life – yoga, meditation, energy healing, kinesiology, talk therapy, EFT aka tapping (the list truly goes on) however I came to the realization after 10 years that nothing was actually helping me to create long lasting change and I was exhausted.
A couple of weeks after I gently whispered those words under my breath, I felt an intense urge to pick up the bible.
I’d never read God’s word in my life, yet here I was lost in the pages of the Gospel of John (what a bloke!) when I had an encounter with the Holy Spirit.
What does it mean to have an encounter with the Holy Spirit?
The presence of God’s love was so overwhelming (in the best way possible) that it brought me to my knees for 48 hours as tears poured from my eyes.
It was nothing like I had ever experienced before.
I knew in that moment I had encountered the Holy Spirit and that my life was about to change immediately.
I knew at that moment that I believed in Jesus (even though I knew nothing about Him)
I knew that I had given my life to God (even though I didn’t know what that would look like)
I knew that I had been saved by Jesus Christ (even though I didn’t understand spiritually what that meant)
Through the power of the Holy Spirit I had encountered the living God and I had been set free from the living hell of depression, anxiety and intrusive thoughts.
In a split second, I was set free.
Not by anything that I had personally done, but by His love for me.
His love.
God met me in my bedroom on a Sunday afternoon while reading the bible on my phone.
WHHHAAAAAT!!!
I didn’t even own a physical bible at the time.
As humans we are so blinded that we don’t see or realise that God is working in our lives right now.
Even if you didn’t ask Him too.
Even if you don’t believe in God.
Even if you don’t know who Jesus is.
I guarantee you, He’s working in your life, right now.
He shows up in your life every single day.
He’s talking to you saying ‘Heyyyyy I’m right here gurl’ because he wants nothing more than for you to know who He is.
Whether you choose to know Him or not, is up to you because God so graciously gave you free will.
You don’t have to know Jesus.
You don’t have to have anything to do with Him, that’s your choice.
However, my prayer if you do feel the call to know Him, is call out…
“Hey God ya there? Ya there big fella?! Pick up!”
You call.
He WILL answer you.
Psalm 120:1 “I call on the Lord in my distress and he answers me”
Big love Shell x
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